Emotions are high…recently I’ve had bouts of anxiety rooted in uncertainty. Uncertainty about who I am and where I’m going. The last time I felt like this was when I was 19 and struggling with if and how to tell my parents I’m gay.
There aren’t many people…only one actually…I trust enough to ask for a psychic reading. I shared this with her while she was doing it, and she responded that it’s the same with many psychics…we don’t allow just anyone to give us readings. Not an elitist thing – just a trust thing. There are a lot of folks who have the gift but don’t know how to use it appropriately. Anyway, during my reading she told me “You come from judgment.” This is true, and when I’m struggling emotionally I’ve noticed how easily I fall into the old pattern of being extremely judgmental of myself and others.
It’s like a fetid balm – it smells terrible and the comfort it offers doesn’t last long. So I have to keep reapplying it, meanwhile spiraling down in a whirlpool of negativity.