There’s no sugar coating this rune’s message. Hagalaz is CHAOS and CHANGE! I’m just beginning to learn that these things don’t have to be painful and dramatic – they only become so when I am unwilling to let the old ways die so the new can be born.
In the midst of my current transition I’ve been trying to manage my stress by getting more exercise (added bonus – it also helps me sleep better). As I pulled into my driveway after returning from the gym this evening, I saw something beautiful that captured the essence of Hagalaz.
The weather here has been stormy – lots of wind and rain but with occasional sun breaks. As I got out of my car my eyes caught the flailing limbs of the trees behind my house. While partially shadowed by clouds and pummeled by wind, the sun also shone on their leaves. The limbs bent with the howling wind, moving with it instead of against it, while the leaves danced in the light of the setting sun.
Watching this I resolved to embrace the chaos surrounding me. I decided to be the master of the uncertainty I feel now (and have felt every time I’ve transitioned in the past) rather than allow it to master me.
I will dance in the wind like the trees, keeping my eyes fixed on the sun beyond the leaden clouds. I will trust that the new path will steadily become clearer. I will embrace the chaos.